thoughts!

I think too much... too, too much ever since I can recall. The thoughts chase me everywhere... at work, in the gym, in the loo and even in my dreams!!! I would rather call those thoughts as "conversations with myself".
It's like a flow... even and unrestrained, expanding wider and sinking deeper. But penning those down is such a pain! I am at a total loss of words when I try to recall and type them out... all sorts of technical jargon come to my mind. Should I get a voice-recorder??? But then, I would have to do the recording in privacy!
Wait!!! what for am I going to preserve my "thoughts"?

I am not even a speck in the whole universe... my thoughts are nothing unique...
Everything, tangible and intangible, is a part of the bigger whole...

The year 2010!!

This year has been an "eye-opener"... literally!!! Not at all productive as far as work is concerned, but it was a "happening" year.

The lessons that I learnt:

(a) nothing is "indispensible" - yes, I have lost interest in "what-mattered-the-most"... rather, in retrospect, I find it meaningless

(b) reduce the time-scale of plans (if I have any) to a daily basis

(c) have absolutely no guilt/remorse in the retrospect - I have this horrible habit of saying "sorry" to people for no fault of my own... my stupid way of making them feel "good"

(d) don't even let people expect anything - I am tired of saying "yes" to everything!!!!


And most importantly, "don't think or judge", just flow with the moment... it's stupid to deny oneself the simple pleasures of life ;)



Counting my days to get back home... err I mean, Raleigh.